Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Be Anxious for Nothing

Lately, I have really been trying to recite, remember, and live by the widsom in Philippians 4:6: 
 "Do not be anxious about anything,  but in everything by prayer and petition with thanksgiving present your request to God. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding will guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus."

The part I keep getting stuck on is:   "the peace of God which transcends all understanding will guard your heart and mind."   My faith must be weak because instead of feeling a sense of peace, I find myself more tense.  The Lord certainly knows best how to sanctify and temper us,  and this has been a continued lesson in blind trust and PATIENCE.    I thought the infertility process was emotional!  Not to take anything away from that (there are enough roller coaster rides there) but with that aspect already added on to the journey I just feel weary and ready for some good news.    Like so many others, we are waiting for news of a child.  It could be today,  or two months from now.   Recognizing my weakness for waiting, I was happy to see this book today:
This book is a compilation of Advent reflections focusing on, you guessed it....waiting.  Although the Advent season is over now, I think this would be a good one any time!    My goal is to not lose sight of the gift of each ordinary day, not to rush away the weeks until we receive the phone call.    My husband is so much better that this than I am!   I guess part of my sense of urgency is, the feeling that we are keeping our daughter waiting.  I long to see her face and meet her.   In the meantime, life goes on and there is much to enjoy in the moment.  I am still a novice in the "art" of waiting, but thankfully I have the best master/teacher in the Lord. :)


  1. Oh Brooke, I totally understand. Try to keep the faith that your daughter is under the very best of care and the reunion (because I know she was always destined for you in God's plan) will happen soon. I know its hard though. We are getting more anxious and tense as the days approach that all the paperwork will be complete so I can only imagine what the "waiting period" is like. Focus on your boys, yourself, your husband, and know God is leading the best way towards your daughter. You aren't keeping her waiting, God is choosing the perfect time. God will guard your heart and mind so continue to look to Him. Take care and stay strong! We're all here for ya :)

  2. I wasn't a good "waiter" either, but I know the timing was perfect, and our child has now been home with us for almost 3 years! It's still unbelievable! It is hard to not try and hurry time up until you meet her, but you can do it!!

  3. I know how you feel. I feel the very same way. I keep thinking it isn't just us waiting but our little one is waiting for us as well. I keep reminding myself that even though our little one is not home with our family yet he does have God and Mary watching over him from Heaven. God's plan is perfect and I know that we will all be united with our children in His perfect timing. It is hard though waiting and wondering when that time will come. One day when we do have that meeting we will understand why we had to wait so that everything could come together in perfect harmony for God's will to be done in this process. Thank you for the book recommendation.

  4. Laura, Kelly and Heidi-I feel like I just got a virtual hug. :) Thanks so much for the encouraging feedback.

  5. From my experience I can say...God's timing is perfect! I have learned to anticipate rather than wait. I started the adoption process for a daughter from China in February of 1996...probably the week my daughter was conceived. I was approved 5 days after she was abandoned and brought her home to celebrate her first birthday...almost two years after I started the process. Along the way God never ceased to amaze me in how he worked all the intricate details...look for those and the Joy in the Journey out weighs the frustration of the wait! My daughter, Grace Joy, is now 14 and still adds joy to my journey! God bless you and my prayers are with you! Gloria